this job. i don’t even know what to say anymore. one of my bosses took me into a conference room last friday (right before it was time for me TO GO no less) under the premise of “checking in” but really he just wanted to get across to me that something i said got under his skin and that they were worried that i wasn’t the “team player” they thought they were getting. and i was a little unprepared for that bullshit, but i let him know that this whole fucking job is getting under my skin. no training for their proprietary bullshit? plus, a lot of people there have been pretty cold towards me. i’m not asking people to like me, just to help me learn how to do the work so that i in turn can decrease the burden on them. nobody wants to bother, and nobody is made to.
he told me he took this job to create a more friendly team-like atmosphere. (which is bullshit because i overheard him say it was $$$. just like the rest of us, he thought, “you’re gonna pay me HOW MUCH?!” and reported for fucking duty.)
i told him it wasn’t working and that this was probably the coldest and most disconnected place i’ve ever worked. with a few exceptions.
he asked me what my goals in the company were, and i was like, i don’t know? clearly my only goal can ever be to take his job, it’s a small department, but i didn’t want to say that. and then i told him that if i ever get around to being trained myself, he needed to put me in charge of the training program. because i’m good at it, i’m friendly, and unlike every fucking person there i never forgot what it was like to be new somewhere. so, that’s my goal, i guess.
natch, i was afraid to go in today. it didn’t help that my hours are 3-11pm, so i had all day to worry. it was a long ass day, but it ended up being fine. my boss’s boss came over to have a friendly chat with me. i think some kind of “be nice to mr. sam!” memo went out or something, which made me even more annoyed.
i’m still worried this isn’t going to work out, though.