So several people have asked if my new job is getting any better. I’ve been in it almost six months now. I guess it’s better. I don’t get nauseated before I go in anymore. Yesterday I raged pretty hard, but a lot of it was hangriness. I still go entire days where I don’t speak to anyone in person (and no one speaks to me). I just don’t have anything in common with these people. All the guys around me talk about sports or comics or nothing. And this is the first job I’ve ever had where I don’t even mesh well with the women. There are two new chicks. One of them is nice, but her braids smell so bad that I was constantly squirting Germ X into my hands and sniffing it to stay sane. The other one is very loud and outgoing and made besties with people already, and we have a similar background so I thought I could make conversation about that with her. But I got an icy response, and I won’t try again. I know I’m unfortunate looking and awkward, but cut me a break when I try. I think if I could switch to a cube with a little more privacy, I would be a lot happier. I’m right in front of every boss, so it’s high traffic and lots of talking.
We use a messenger at work, and I used to chat with the gay, but whenever I do, he starts asking me to do things, and it was negatively affecting my performance numbers. So it’s strictly biz now. Sometimes I chat with a chick there, but we usually just make fun of all the guys for being stupid about sports and comics. She drops some juicy deets, though. She’s got the inside scoop on all kinds of drama I don’t want any part of.
And now our most senior level manager wants to get us all together outside of work for “team building.” Listen. My department provides 24/7 support to about half the company, and my team works 3pm-11pm ish. We can’t even have meetings because our work is non stop, and now you want us to, what, go bowling? On one of our days off? We need to team build on your time, sweetheart.
Anyway. I just go there, do my job, and go home. I think it’s a dead end job, but at least it pays okay. My entire life is very Groundhog Day, and I’m becoming very numb to it. It’s depressing. Hopefully there will be more positive changes on the horizon.